i cant watch tv or play video games at your house because they require me to pay attention and i dont like having ether running with out paying attention to them. and i dont see what else there would be to do in your house other then watch tv. ether way, your gunna end up on your lap top and im gunna be the dick that payed attention to the tv thats on because theres nothing else to do. you see why coming to your house is starting to piss me off… im sorry i cant think of a billion different things to say to you all day long to keep you entertained. babe, i have never expected you to entertain me… dont ever tell me to entertain you, im not a fucking birthday clown. im not here to make sure your not bored. you know what i do when im bored… i accept it and deal with it. im perfectly happy being bored around you. id rather be bored with you around then bored and alone. but thats not good enough for you. you gotta be with me and entertained the whole time. im sorry babe, but im no entertainer.

when you started fucking that lil black bitch, i told you all about how much of a whore she was. i told you not to get mixed up with her and that she was a trick, but when she came around and you kept fucking her i treated her kindly in person because it was yer peace of ass. im not gunna be a dick to yer chick in person cause i dont like her and make shit awkward or rough for you just cause im around. but you gotta get all personal with it because you dont like my chick. hide yer bud, and tell my best fucking friends not to tell me. especially cody, who just smoked you out you fuck.

there are these random times where i want to help anyone i can in what ever way possible. i want to be useful or helpful or important for what ever matter, i want to feel like im making some kind of difference. then, when everything starts to suck around me, i change my mind. and i want to fuck shit up. and i want to fight people. and i want to break shit. and i want to argue. and i want to be heard in the worst way. its so self destructive. lashing out, then trying to help people or give advice. i guess im just in an evolutionary rut. stuck in a stasis or something.

alternating stories…? hmmm… i wonder what else you lie about when you talk about him to other people? i wonder if he knows what you say about him to other guys to get sympathy? 

my friends would be worried about me.

so last time i went to the blink 182 concert i was in love with you. you choose someone else and now you want me to go to the blink concert with you and him this year…. i cant do that. i honestly cant do that.